Squashy has Aspergers Syndrome. He wasn't diagnosed until the age of 10, and that was following a teacher highlighting his issues and concerns about him. Up until his dx he has spent all his school years getting into trouble. We were constantly told he was naughty, and led to beleive he couldn't be controlled, and was being 'naughty' on purpose. I used to worry it was because I was at work and uni, that he was always shipped about to people to be looked after while I worked and I Thiught that was why his behavior was like it was.
When we were given the dx, it was a mixture of upset, fear, anger, relief, and 100 other emotions in one. We had no clue what autism was. So I spent the May three years reading everything I could find. Going to every open day, awareness session, parent group, class, and any other kind of information sharing or contact-making place I could find. We still have difficult days, god knows school was AWFUL, but I feel (on the whole) well equipped to deal with it. Even if it's something new that I don't know answers to I feel at least I know where to look or who to ask for those answers. Except for this. I have big suspicions about Momo being on the spectrum too. It's not even suspicions now, it's almost certainty. And the last few wreks it just seems to be more prominent and bringin more issues. But like I said above. I feel fairly well equipped to either deal with them or at least how to find out strategies and ideas. So my dilemma is do I need to seek out a dx for him? I can't see a way right now it would benefit us. But if I consider the future, and what if he ever goes to school? Or joins a club or group where they'd want a dx to offer support. Or develops other issues that are beyond me and my coping methods?
My mind changes everyday and it is driving me crazy and really getting me down. He's my little curly monkey, no matter what and nothing would change with or without a dx. He makes me smile, laugh, cry but certainly wouldn't be him if he was any other way.
But the sun is shining so we've had a few days of getting out on his bike which seems to help him a lot. And me. Sunshine always makes you smile doesn't it.
